if at some point in the futureyou visit as I'm laid to restplease don't act surprisedwhen you seen I was a messi swallowed the lonelinessI choked on most my tearsyou would never know I struggledwith happiness for many yearsbut eventually it got harderto pretend I was okaymy tears flowed so freelyno smile would ever stay.i … Continue reading no surprise
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My Expectations and How They Weren’t Met
You don’t seem to give a shit that I am going through it. Not only am I spending another god damn holiday without my family, my boyfriend doesn't want to spend time with me. You been making an effort to be a better man. But that better man is just as selfish as before. I … Continue reading My Expectations and How They Weren’t Met
12/11/18 IN LOVE WITH PAIN
I fell in love with pain Its almost like I enjoy it Disguised as hopes and dreams Get all caught up, then can't even split Won't let this shit happen again Put in the effort for the unworthy Give mind body and soul Just to beg for mercy That feeling of being wanted Feeling your … Continue reading 12/11/18 IN LOVE WITH PAIN
12/10 I will save me
Why is it so important to have God in your life if you want to beat addiction? People say "God will save you" to me and I get a little bent. I am going to save me. I will do what it takes to become the best version of myself and its no thanks to … Continue reading 12/10 I will save me
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He’ll never stay, they never do
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12/2 Absence is not the Answer
I have never claimed to be innocent or perfect. I have made small and big mistakes. Some that effected my life tremendously and some that made no difference at all. One choice I go back and forth about whether or not I regret it. is the decision to keep my baby even though I hadn't … Continue reading 12/2 Absence is not the Answer
Ellie Bliss
Perfect Beginning Terribly in love with you soaked inside of my soul head spinnin with infatuation barely a hesitation seen ya sittin there trapt in ya fuckin mind and me just hearin the time tick by im not sleepin a wink tonight so caught up in those eyes then that choke hold it got my … Continue reading Ellie Bliss
9/6/18 Expectations
I keep staring at my laptop trying to figure out where to begin. So many things have happened and changed in the last couple months. The people that I thought I would be standing by until the end of time are gone and I feel lost. I know that everything happens for a reason and … Continue reading 9/6/18 Expectations
Consistent Disappointment 